Hi folks! My original plan as regards LJ entries was to write one this afternoon or this evening, after playing and reading in a carol service this morning. But the carol service was cancelled, due to bad weather (more about that later), so I've been at home all morning, and busy too, as I've been all this week, so I will do my LJ entry right now, instead of waiting till later.
If I remember rightly, I did my last LJ entry on 12 December, and a lot has happened since then. Last Sunday, we had an ordinary morning service at our church in Calais, followed by the usual monthly restaurant meal the whole congregation has together. It was also last weekend that I started a marathon of writing "snail mail" Christmas cards: these cards either go to people who don't have email so can't receive e-cards, or people who use email but prefer receiving cards by good old-fashioned "snail mail", plus there were 26 such cards to write, several of which I wanted to put braille or print letters with, so it took a good five days to finish them all. I still have this year's Christmas e-cards to do, and many of you reading this here LJ entry will get e-cards from me: for those of you who don't, it's nothing personal, but I don't know everybody's email address, and I wish those who don't get any card from me just as happy a Christmas as those who do. Last Tuesday evening my Calais choir had its last rehearsal of 2009, singing three songs we'd learned since October, accompanied by a pianist for the first time since then: this was a great help to us, making it far easier to keep in tune and in rhythm than when we had practised those songs without accompaniment. I don't know when the songs my Calais choir is currently learning will get performed in a concert, probably some time in 2010, but we're making good progress with the songs we already know, and I expect we'll have more songs to learn next year. My Mum and I went out Christmas shopping last Monday morning, which was a good thing, because since Wednesday we have had snow here, which has now become quite thick. We didn't cancel our carol service on Friday night in Calais, but it started 45 minutes late due to many people, including one of the organists and several of the congregation, arriving late: we cut out some of the carols and readings, and my small five-piece choir didn't sing in that service either, because the soprano and the tenor didn't get to the church, in fact I don't even know whether they left home that evening. I did a Bible reading at our Calais carol service, as well as being one of the keyboard-players accompanying all the carols. In spite of the weather, quite a few people came to our carol service who don't come to our church, and they were both English and French people, so some of the carols were in both languages, even though all the readings were in English. After the service, those of us there who are members of the Calais Anglican church congregation were invited to one of our members' house for an evening meal, which was also a sort of housewarming because she'd moved into her new house a few months ago and most of us had never visited it. We don't regret having that meal, but one drawback of doing so was that it snowed heavily all evening and our car got stuck in the snow. So my parents, with the help of our friend and her next-door neighbours, had to dig the car out and push it on to the road: I stayed in the car to keep warm because its engine was running and the heater was on, but, as you can imagine, I was something of a nervous wreck sitting there in the car, worrying that it would skid out of control or hit a wall or something, but thank goodness it didn't! It took us one-and-a-half hours to dig the car out, so we didn't get home till past midnight, because we also had to take it slowly driving home along the snowy icy roads. With the snow continuing all through this weekend, the carol service at Boulogne this morning, where I was going to play all the carols by myself and be one of the readers, was cancelled: I will hopefully be playing at Boulogne's Christmas Morning service, though, weather permitting of course! Plenty of things have been going on at home too, not just the card-writing marathon. That marathon was almost over by last Thursday, so, after several days of not opening Skhype at all, and rarely opening Miranda and Klango and Qwitter, those programs all started being used again: in fact, not a day has gone by since Thursday without some good skypage, including talking to![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif)
dj_tt on Skype for the very first time on Thursday (after only talking to him on Teamtalk before that), and being in a conference for a short while on Friday which included blindwriter4god whom I hadn't spoken to on Skype for absolutely ages. I had originally planned to post this here LJ entry this morning, but, having discovered that a newer version of freakyfwoof's preconfigured Miranda was available than the one I already had, I downloaded it, forgetting to back up my profile before I did so: that meant I spent half the morning setting things up right for myself on Miranda again, because, although getting MSN to work and choosing the destination for files sent to me didn't take long, putting in all the weather stations again and doing my personalised status messages took me a big chunk of this morning. Never mind, I've got Miranda how I like it now, and I hopefully won't have to redo a lot of stuff next time I update. In between everything else, I have also had a few audio games binges, but there are no fabulous scores to report. As I write this, I am still waiting for the release of a new Christmas game from Blastbay Studios: I heard a preview of this game, called Kringle Crush, this morning, and I cansay, to quote lulu_bear66, with great emphasis: "I want, I want, I want!"
OK, that's enough twaddle from me today, it's about time I read my LJ friends page again, something I haven't done for a few days. I won't make any promises as to when I'll post another entry here, but it may well be before Christmas: having seen an interesting-sounding survey in several friends' LJ's, I told them in comments that I plan to do that survey myself, so hopefully I'll have time to post my answers to that survey in this here LJ before 25 December, if not it'll be here before 2009 is at an end. Now I'm really outa here, so all the best to all of you, with my thoughts and prayers going out to anyone who has worries or health problems right now.
µBye for now, then, and watch this space for the next entry from me!
If I remember rightly, I did my last LJ entry on 12 December, and a lot has happened since then. Last Sunday, we had an ordinary morning service at our church in Calais, followed by the usual monthly restaurant meal the whole congregation has together. It was also last weekend that I started a marathon of writing "snail mail" Christmas cards: these cards either go to people who don't have email so can't receive e-cards, or people who use email but prefer receiving cards by good old-fashioned "snail mail", plus there were 26 such cards to write, several of which I wanted to put braille or print letters with, so it took a good five days to finish them all. I still have this year's Christmas e-cards to do, and many of you reading this here LJ entry will get e-cards from me: for those of you who don't, it's nothing personal, but I don't know everybody's email address, and I wish those who don't get any card from me just as happy a Christmas as those who do. Last Tuesday evening my Calais choir had its last rehearsal of 2009, singing three songs we'd learned since October, accompanied by a pianist for the first time since then: this was a great help to us, making it far easier to keep in tune and in rhythm than when we had practised those songs without accompaniment. I don't know when the songs my Calais choir is currently learning will get performed in a concert, probably some time in 2010, but we're making good progress with the songs we already know, and I expect we'll have more songs to learn next year. My Mum and I went out Christmas shopping last Monday morning, which was a good thing, because since Wednesday we have had snow here, which has now become quite thick. We didn't cancel our carol service on Friday night in Calais, but it started 45 minutes late due to many people, including one of the organists and several of the congregation, arriving late: we cut out some of the carols and readings, and my small five-piece choir didn't sing in that service either, because the soprano and the tenor didn't get to the church, in fact I don't even know whether they left home that evening. I did a Bible reading at our Calais carol service, as well as being one of the keyboard-players accompanying all the carols. In spite of the weather, quite a few people came to our carol service who don't come to our church, and they were both English and French people, so some of the carols were in both languages, even though all the readings were in English. After the service, those of us there who are members of the Calais Anglican church congregation were invited to one of our members' house for an evening meal, which was also a sort of housewarming because she'd moved into her new house a few months ago and most of us had never visited it. We don't regret having that meal, but one drawback of doing so was that it snowed heavily all evening and our car got stuck in the snow. So my parents, with the help of our friend and her next-door neighbours, had to dig the car out and push it on to the road: I stayed in the car to keep warm because its engine was running and the heater was on, but, as you can imagine, I was something of a nervous wreck sitting there in the car, worrying that it would skid out of control or hit a wall or something, but thank goodness it didn't! It took us one-and-a-half hours to dig the car out, so we didn't get home till past midnight, because we also had to take it slowly driving home along the snowy icy roads. With the snow continuing all through this weekend, the carol service at Boulogne this morning, where I was going to play all the carols by myself and be one of the readers, was cancelled: I will hopefully be playing at Boulogne's Christmas Morning service, though, weather permitting of course! Plenty of things have been going on at home too, not just the card-writing marathon. That marathon was almost over by last Thursday, so, after several days of not opening Skhype at all, and rarely opening Miranda and Klango and Qwitter, those programs all started being used again: in fact, not a day has gone by since Thursday without some good skypage, including talking to
dj_tt on Skype for the very first time on Thursday (after only talking to him on Teamtalk before that), and being in a conference for a short while on Friday which included blindwriter4god whom I hadn't spoken to on Skype for absolutely ages. I had originally planned to post this here LJ entry this morning, but, having discovered that a newer version of freakyfwoof's preconfigured Miranda was available than the one I already had, I downloaded it, forgetting to back up my profile before I did so: that meant I spent half the morning setting things up right for myself on Miranda again, because, although getting MSN to work and choosing the destination for files sent to me didn't take long, putting in all the weather stations again and doing my personalised status messages took me a big chunk of this morning. Never mind, I've got Miranda how I like it now, and I hopefully won't have to redo a lot of stuff next time I update. In between everything else, I have also had a few audio games binges, but there are no fabulous scores to report. As I write this, I am still waiting for the release of a new Christmas game from Blastbay Studios: I heard a preview of this game, called Kringle Crush, this morning, and I cansay, to quote lulu_bear66, with great emphasis: "I want, I want, I want!"OK, that's enough twaddle from me today, it's about time I read my LJ friends page again, something I haven't done for a few days. I won't make any promises as to when I'll post another entry here, but it may well be before Christmas: having seen an interesting-sounding survey in several friends' LJ's, I told them in comments that I plan to do that survey myself, so hopefully I'll have time to post my answers to that survey in this here LJ before 25 December, if not it'll be here before 2009 is at an end. Now I'm really outa here, so all the best to all of you, with my thoughts and prayers going out to anyone who has worries or health problems right now.
µBye for now, then, and watch this space for the next entry from me!
- Mood:
happy - Music:107 The Phoenix's All Christmas Slip Stream
Hi, peeps. Well, today is better than yesterday. Today I'm up, talking on Skype, I've recorded a couple of new tracks, one a very silly Christmas track, the other more sad and gorgeous. If you'd like to hear them go right here and grab the zipped folder.
Yesterday was very nasty indeed, I was completely blocked up, Migrainey, dizzy, too short of breath to eat or drink anything with pleasure. When my sinuses are at their worst, I literally can't move air through my blocked nose, it won't breathe in or out, but continues to, er, dribble nastily, sorry for the T M I, but it sucks. When I do manage to blow, it smells disgusting, totally rank and acidic, almost metallic! The thing is, this should not be happening. I'm taking strong antibiotics, plus an antihistamine, plus a spray. So why am I still so deeply infected?
I think my ear's improved some, because I'm hearing much better now. I've had to hand over the meds to Doctor Spyde, as I have a memory like a sieve, and can so easily forget to put my drops in, or take my pills. I just bless him for being so good to me.
Well, I'm feeling rather at a loose end at the moment, not sure what to do with myself. Having caught you up as much as I can, I guess I'll goof off and find something or other. It's only a week to Christmas, yayage! I can't freaking wait. things keep arriving and I don't know what all they are. This week's going to drag!
Ok, huge huggies to all my friends, especially any with a lot on their minds, or who aren't feeling their best. See y'all laters.
Yesterday was very nasty indeed, I was completely blocked up, Migrainey, dizzy, too short of breath to eat or drink anything with pleasure. When my sinuses are at their worst, I literally can't move air through my blocked nose, it won't breathe in or out, but continues to, er, dribble nastily, sorry for the T M I, but it sucks. When I do manage to blow, it smells disgusting, totally rank and acidic, almost metallic! The thing is, this should not be happening. I'm taking strong antibiotics, plus an antihistamine, plus a spray. So why am I still so deeply infected?
I think my ear's improved some, because I'm hearing much better now. I've had to hand over the meds to Doctor Spyde, as I have a memory like a sieve, and can so easily forget to put my drops in, or take my pills. I just bless him for being so good to me.
Well, I'm feeling rather at a loose end at the moment, not sure what to do with myself. Having caught you up as much as I can, I guess I'll goof off and find something or other. It's only a week to Christmas, yayage! I can't freaking wait. things keep arriving and I don't know what all they are. This week's going to drag!
Ok, huge huggies to all my friends, especially any with a lot on their minds, or who aren't feeling their best. See y'all laters.
- Mood:Ok Bear.
- Music:Beth Neilsen Chapman - Happy Girl
I've been in doctor Spyde mode today, not with a migraine Bear this time, but with a blocked-sinuses Bear. She's had the wobbles from that so I help her get around so she won't fall, like she did when she got up without telling me she needed to and once before that when I wasn't quite fast enough to catch her.
Lulu is addicted to Scrabble now, the real one. I have a Braille version I got from APH long ago. I hadn't played since before Jane died, long before, and it felt good to play again. It's so wonderful playing games with Lulu. Still on that line, we've been playing cards, Blackjack to be specific. She tried to teach me Cribbage but, like Solitaire, I just can't get the concepts of it.
I have no new personal bests to report in my computer gaming so I'll mosey off to bed I suppose. I'll have to get up at seven to see that Lulu gets her antibiotic and antihistamine. I keep hoping her infection will clear up but it just wants to hang on, peh! Keep watching this space for more from me. Bye, till next time.
Lulu is addicted to Scrabble now, the real one. I have a Braille version I got from APH long ago. I hadn't played since before Jane died, long before, and it felt good to play again. It's so wonderful playing games with Lulu. Still on that line, we've been playing cards, Blackjack to be specific. She tried to teach me Cribbage but, like Solitaire, I just can't get the concepts of it.
I have no new personal bests to report in my computer gaming so I'll mosey off to bed I suppose. I'll have to get up at seven to see that Lulu gets her antibiotic and antihistamine. I keep hoping her infection will clear up but it just wants to hang on, peh! Keep watching this space for more from me. Bye, till next time.
- Location:My desk
- Mood:A bit worried
- Music:Lulu's book and various heaters
I've been here, mostly worried for Lulu's migraine, ear infection, her really not liking being here, things like that.
Today, it's mostly better with her migraine gone and our successful trip to the doctor. More antibiotics and some meds to dry things up a bit. We'll see what success we have when the follow-up in two weeks happens.
I have two new personal bests to report. 177 in Super Egg and 425 in Great Toy Robbery.
So, most of last week was in doctor Spyde mode.
Santa's elves and I have been busy putting Christmas gifts together for sweet Lulu. Then one came already wrapped, beautifully, I might add. Gee, I wish there was a tree to put that one under.
I'm really quite feeling well now that I'm getting over the cough and Lulu is feeling better except for an aching hip.
I really don't know what else to post. I can't wait for February and our return trip to Wales.
Today, it's mostly better with her migraine gone and our successful trip to the doctor. More antibiotics and some meds to dry things up a bit. We'll see what success we have when the follow-up in two weeks happens.
I have two new personal bests to report. 177 in Super Egg and 425 in Great Toy Robbery.
So, most of last week was in doctor Spyde mode.
Santa's elves and I have been busy putting Christmas gifts together for sweet Lulu. Then one came already wrapped, beautifully, I might add. Gee, I wish there was a tree to put that one under.
I'm really quite feeling well now that I'm getting over the cough and Lulu is feeling better except for an aching hip.
I really don't know what else to post. I can't wait for February and our return trip to Wales.
- Location:My desk
- Mood:I's ok
- Music:Lulu playing with Will
Well, things have improved around here, so yay to that! Last night my sleep was completely skewed, I slept some, woke some and read an excellent J D Rob mystery. I woke up properly about ten this morning, and the first thing I thought was, yay! The cat's home. I jumped up, grabbed some clothes, and ran into the den, and she was! We spent a nice long time, the three of us, catching up. I had huge amount of mail and tweets and Klango to catch up on, so I did that while we all nattered.
About one, I jumped in a shower, and dressed to go out. For this afternoon I had an appointment at the hospital about my stupid freaking ear! We got seen fairly early, and O Joy! It's still infected, so, more antibiotics, more drops, and a antihistamine too!
We had to go by Brookshers to pick up the meds, and while I was there I wanted some groceries. Bess took us home to her place while she finished seeing her patients, she works as a private nurse, and then she and her husband Dan took us to the shop, and we had a very successful shop.
I didn't get back till late in Sweden, but the cat's still up, having napped earlier, so we three are back on Skype, doing our own things and chatting desultorily. I had a yumpskelicious pizza for dinner, followed by a handful of some new chips I hadn't tried called Midnight Tacos, they were totally delumptious! I topped it off with two rice Krispie bars and a cuppa tea. Oink, oink! Anyone wanna buy a fat pig? Teeheeheehee!
So, that's the end of a very yayelicious kind of day. Aw man, Avril Lavine is shrieking at me, I wish she wouldn't. I'm off for now, see y'all laters, and huge huggies!
About one, I jumped in a shower, and dressed to go out. For this afternoon I had an appointment at the hospital about my stupid freaking ear! We got seen fairly early, and O Joy! It's still infected, so, more antibiotics, more drops, and a antihistamine too!
We had to go by Brookshers to pick up the meds, and while I was there I wanted some groceries. Bess took us home to her place while she finished seeing her patients, she works as a private nurse, and then she and her husband Dan took us to the shop, and we had a very successful shop.
I didn't get back till late in Sweden, but the cat's still up, having napped earlier, so we three are back on Skype, doing our own things and chatting desultorily. I had a yumpskelicious pizza for dinner, followed by a handful of some new chips I hadn't tried called Midnight Tacos, they were totally delumptious! I topped it off with two rice Krispie bars and a cuppa tea. Oink, oink! Anyone wanna buy a fat pig? Teeheeheehee!
So, that's the end of a very yayelicious kind of day. Aw man, Avril Lavine is shrieking at me, I wish she wouldn't. I'm off for now, see y'all laters, and huge huggies!
- Mood:Yay Bear!
- Music:Avril Lavigne - He Wasn't
Evening all,
I've had a nice time tonight, relaxing, having a very nice dinner and listening to folk waves, a show i haven't listened too in a while.
Today i went to get some more medication and had my housing appointment with janice.
We did another risk asessment (boring but necessary) and talked a lot which made me feel better.
Tomorrow is one of the busiest.
I've got my swine flu jab in the morning, oooooh i'm really not looking forward to it.
I hate needles, yes i'm blind and can't see them, but hate the prick.
The pain is awful.
After that i'm having a mini manicure and pedicure before christmas which i'm looking forward too.
I've never had a pedicure before, interesting.
I've got a meeting in the evening and that's my tuesday done with.
so yeah, hope tomorrow is good for everyone.
I've had a nice time tonight, relaxing, having a very nice dinner and listening to folk waves, a show i haven't listened too in a while.
Today i went to get some more medication and had my housing appointment with janice.
We did another risk asessment (boring but necessary) and talked a lot which made me feel better.
Tomorrow is one of the busiest.
I've got my swine flu jab in the morning, oooooh i'm really not looking forward to it.
I hate needles, yes i'm blind and can't see them, but hate the prick.
The pain is awful.
After that i'm having a mini manicure and pedicure before christmas which i'm looking forward too.
I've never had a pedicure before, interesting.
I've got a meeting in the evening and that's my tuesday done with.
so yeah, hope tomorrow is good for everyone.
- Mood:yikes
I forgot to put in my last entry, that we got some really nice things from our respective parents, not counting my cell phone: My mum gave us an electric hand-mixer. I happened to mention that ours was broken, and since she had one to spare, she gave it too us. I also got some really nice clothes she has grown out of, including that wonderful skirt I so admired when she bought it. She also gave me a pair of shoes, real nice and warm, since the ones I had were getting on in years. Christer's mum sent us 500 Swedish crowns each, which was really and truly sweet of her. Now we can get the christmas food we want! Thank you, mum, dad and Karina!
The subject is borrowed from a chapter of J.R.R. Tolkien's "The fellowship of the ring", but I thought it was adequate here too.
I went to my mum's on thursday. The young man from the Guides was very good, even if he sounded very insecure on the phone. I slept for most of the journey, and read Mary Stewart's book "My brother Michael". A rather good book and a good narration too.
The bus arrived at about 8.40 PM, so all there was time for when I came home, was a cup of hot chocolate and a couple of sandwiches.
On friday mum and I went to the chemist's,since I had run out of two of my meds. We also visited my second cousin Johnny, which was very nice. He gave me a massage, and ouchy wouchy wah-wah-woo! It was quite painful. My poor back is still sore. But we had a nice gathering, with tea and cookies. Yumpsk!
On saturday we went to a kind of Christmas fair. It wasn't much to boast of, but mum bought some yummilicious chocolate cookies, and I bought some Christmas candy. I don't know the English names of them.
In the evening Mum had me watch some horrible stuff on TV with her, since she wanted my opinion of the different bands. It was a competition of Swedish dance bands, which definitely isn't my cup of tea, but I watched it all the same to humour her.
Sunday was the day for the big family gathering. Well, to be honest, it wasn't only family members. There were Johnny and his family, and oh my, how Josephine has grown, and her manners have improved enormously! So much so, that I confused her with her sister Caroline, who is about three years older. Then there were some friends of mum and dad's, Peter and Emelina and their two daughters. There was also a neighbour of Johnny's with her daughter, and she was a wild one if ever I've seen one. She was all over everybody, running back and forth and caused mischief. The worst thing was that I had the migraine from hell, but luckily mum had some really good pain killers. But when two of the little girls found some teeny tiny flutes and started playing, I flew downstairs! The shrill sound was killing my poor head!
When all these guests had gone, an elderly couple who are really close to mum and dad came over. I think I've mentioned them before: She is a sweet old lady, but he laughs like a hysterical horse at his own jokes. But the men soon withdrew to the living-room, to TV and schnaps, while we women sat in the kitchen and had a cosy chat over coffee and cookies.
This morning we had to make an early start, since the bus leaves at 7.40. But I wasn't as tired as I thought I'd be. But now the long weekend is starting to tell on me.
I went to my mum's on thursday. The young man from the Guides was very good, even if he sounded very insecure on the phone. I slept for most of the journey, and read Mary Stewart's book "My brother Michael". A rather good book and a good narration too.
The bus arrived at about 8.40 PM, so all there was time for when I came home, was a cup of hot chocolate and a couple of sandwiches.
On friday mum and I went to the chemist's,since I had run out of two of my meds. We also visited my second cousin Johnny, which was very nice. He gave me a massage, and ouchy wouchy wah-wah-woo! It was quite painful. My poor back is still sore. But we had a nice gathering, with tea and cookies. Yumpsk!
On saturday we went to a kind of Christmas fair. It wasn't much to boast of, but mum bought some yummilicious chocolate cookies, and I bought some Christmas candy. I don't know the English names of them.
In the evening Mum had me watch some horrible stuff on TV with her, since she wanted my opinion of the different bands. It was a competition of Swedish dance bands, which definitely isn't my cup of tea, but I watched it all the same to humour her.
Sunday was the day for the big family gathering. Well, to be honest, it wasn't only family members. There were Johnny and his family, and oh my, how Josephine has grown, and her manners have improved enormously! So much so, that I confused her with her sister Caroline, who is about three years older. Then there were some friends of mum and dad's, Peter and Emelina and their two daughters. There was also a neighbour of Johnny's with her daughter, and she was a wild one if ever I've seen one. She was all over everybody, running back and forth and caused mischief. The worst thing was that I had the migraine from hell, but luckily mum had some really good pain killers. But when two of the little girls found some teeny tiny flutes and started playing, I flew downstairs! The shrill sound was killing my poor head!
When all these guests had gone, an elderly couple who are really close to mum and dad came over. I think I've mentioned them before: She is a sweet old lady, but he laughs like a hysterical horse at his own jokes. But the men soon withdrew to the living-room, to TV and schnaps, while we women sat in the kitchen and had a cosy chat over coffee and cookies.
This morning we had to make an early start, since the bus leaves at 7.40. But I wasn't as tired as I thought I'd be. But now the long weekend is starting to tell on me.
Evening all,
I'm so happy right now, joe won the x factor, thank god! best man won.#
I got back here on friday and have been enjoying my weekend.#
Saturday was spent mostly relaxing and in the eveningjadylady and gav came round for a while, very nice and we exchanged presents and cards, i haven't opened my present am waiting until christmas day.
Today we went for lunch in the grovener in, our last one together before next sunday when i leave for christmas and we all go separate ways.
I'm partly looking forward to christmas, i'll say for the record i'll never ever forget last christmas, even though things have happened and some of the party have parted ways, it's one i'll keep in my heart, forever.
This week i've got a meeting, volunteering (whenever i can fit it in) and on tuesday my swine flu jab, aaaaaaah! i'm not looking forward to that.
Anyways, will update whenever i can.
I'm so happy right now, joe won the x factor, thank god! best man won.#
I got back here on friday and have been enjoying my weekend.#
Saturday was spent mostly relaxing and in the evening
jadylady and gav came round for a while, very nice and we exchanged presents and cards, i haven't opened my present am waiting until christmas day.Today we went for lunch in the grovener in, our last one together before next sunday when i leave for christmas and we all go separate ways.
I'm partly looking forward to christmas, i'll say for the record i'll never ever forget last christmas, even though things have happened and some of the party have parted ways, it's one i'll keep in my heart, forever.
This week i've got a meeting, volunteering (whenever i can fit it in) and on tuesday my swine flu jab, aaaaaaah! i'm not looking forward to that.
Anyways, will update whenever i can.
- Mood:have no fucking idea, next?
- Music:heartbreakers and heavy sleepy breathing
Hi peeps. These last few days have been nasty, but today just caps them all. I've had a really, really nasty Migraine which makes you think it's gone, then comes back! Today I had a major run in with someone. I can't talk about why, as it involves other people, but just suffice it to say, I don't know when I've felt more furious. I really thought I'd never go on Klango again, it's just getting to be too damn much! but I've had too many good times on there to be stopped from having more, and making more friends. If I can't avoid this person, I'll just have to use it as a media player. That's all I feel like saying really. Huge hugs to my friends.
- Mood:Black Swamp Bear.
- Music:Terence Trent D'arby / Sign Your Name
Hi folks! once again, the subject line above tells you my reasons for posting this entry, only four days after my previous one.
OK, then, let's start with the birthday wishes! According to the email notifications I recently received from LiveJournal, two people on my LJ friends list have birthdays this weekend:marrie12's birthday is today, and robdz has his birthday tomorrow. So, Sarah and Rob, I wish you both a very happy birthday, and all the best for the next year of your lives.
There have been no birthday celebrations around here, but preparations are still underway for our annual celebration of Jesus's birthday, that festival we call Christmas. Last Wednesday afternoon there was a planning meeting for our upcoming carol service in Calais on 18 December, with the two of us who will play the carols there on both our keyboards, plus my Mum, plus the priest who will lead the service, who is not our new full-time one, since she is doing a carol service elsewhere that evening, but the priest from the mission to seafarers in Dunkirk, up the coast north of here, who helps us out sometimes: the planning meeting not only included deciding what carols we'll sing next Friday, but deciding what Bible readings would be read between the carols, and when in the service my small five-piece choir will sing two carols. While we're on the subject of carol services, the one I played and read at for the English-speaking community in Saint-Omer went well last night: the place where I had to stand to do my reading was some distance from my keyboard, but I was taken to the right place, so that was good, and we had some yumpskitudinous refreshments afterwards, including sausage rolls, mince pies, and mulled wine. I'm getting involved in non-religious pre-Christmas activities too, such as going Christmas shopping in the UK, starting to do "snail mail" Christmas cards, and playing the three Christmas-themed games I have in my audio game collection. Our day-trip to England last Thursday went very well, with us getting plenty of shopping done, including Christmas cards and sausage rolls, but also plenty of unchristmassy stuff: for the first time in years, we crosse to England through the Channel Tunnel, rather than taking the ferry, because there were special cheap fares for day-trips through the tunnel on any Tuesday or Wednesday or Thursday during the first half of December, and we were lucky to be able to come back to France two hours earlier than we'd booked without having to pay extra either. The day before that, my braille display arrived back here, working perfectly, but today is the first day that I have connected it and the PAC Mate to the computer: I've already mentioned being away from home all day on Thursday, then yesterday I felt irrationally scared that something would go wrong with the braille display if I connected it to the computer, which is highly stupid because I'd used it with the PAC Mate to update the calendar in that with appointments such as carol service and choir practices next Tuesday. As for the Christmas-themed games I mentioned above, I have three of these. In Christmas Whoop Ass, Old Man Stanley is a very grumpy Santa Claus, and he punches people who insult him, and you have to punch him back without being too slow or punching him in the wrong direction. In Bobby's Revenge, you are a boy who didn't get any presents from Santa, so you attack him with a paint-ball and a tazer gun, gaining points each time you hit him. Then there is The Great Toy Robbery, where you play the role of another disgruntled boy who never received anything for Christmas, but in this case the object of the game, or, one could say, Naughty McNaughterson's revenge on Santa, is to steal as many toys as possible without getting your head smashed in by Santa's security elves or getting your whole self squashed by Santa himself when you've collected thirty toys from his workshop: yesterday I achieved a new personal best in this game, 420, which put me in 7th place on the online scoreboard for that game, something I'm very very happy about, although obviously I hope to improve my score even more. Besides everything else, I've continued my usual activities, including keeping in touch with friends.
But one thing I haven't done for a few days is read my LJ friends page, so I really must do that now. This is Fleurette the frog hopping outa here for today! (Big friendly smile).
Bye to you all, then, till next time, and watch this space for my next entry, whenever that gets posted!
OK, then, let's start with the birthday wishes! According to the email notifications I recently received from LiveJournal, two people on my LJ friends list have birthdays this weekend:
marrie12's birthday is today, and robdz has his birthday tomorrow. So, Sarah and Rob, I wish you both a very happy birthday, and all the best for the next year of your lives.There have been no birthday celebrations around here, but preparations are still underway for our annual celebration of Jesus's birthday, that festival we call Christmas. Last Wednesday afternoon there was a planning meeting for our upcoming carol service in Calais on 18 December, with the two of us who will play the carols there on both our keyboards, plus my Mum, plus the priest who will lead the service, who is not our new full-time one, since she is doing a carol service elsewhere that evening, but the priest from the mission to seafarers in Dunkirk, up the coast north of here, who helps us out sometimes: the planning meeting not only included deciding what carols we'll sing next Friday, but deciding what Bible readings would be read between the carols, and when in the service my small five-piece choir will sing two carols. While we're on the subject of carol services, the one I played and read at for the English-speaking community in Saint-Omer went well last night: the place where I had to stand to do my reading was some distance from my keyboard, but I was taken to the right place, so that was good, and we had some yumpskitudinous refreshments afterwards, including sausage rolls, mince pies, and mulled wine. I'm getting involved in non-religious pre-Christmas activities too, such as going Christmas shopping in the UK, starting to do "snail mail" Christmas cards, and playing the three Christmas-themed games I have in my audio game collection. Our day-trip to England last Thursday went very well, with us getting plenty of shopping done, including Christmas cards and sausage rolls, but also plenty of unchristmassy stuff: for the first time in years, we crosse to England through the Channel Tunnel, rather than taking the ferry, because there were special cheap fares for day-trips through the tunnel on any Tuesday or Wednesday or Thursday during the first half of December, and we were lucky to be able to come back to France two hours earlier than we'd booked without having to pay extra either. The day before that, my braille display arrived back here, working perfectly, but today is the first day that I have connected it and the PAC Mate to the computer: I've already mentioned being away from home all day on Thursday, then yesterday I felt irrationally scared that something would go wrong with the braille display if I connected it to the computer, which is highly stupid because I'd used it with the PAC Mate to update the calendar in that with appointments such as carol service and choir practices next Tuesday. As for the Christmas-themed games I mentioned above, I have three of these. In Christmas Whoop Ass, Old Man Stanley is a very grumpy Santa Claus, and he punches people who insult him, and you have to punch him back without being too slow or punching him in the wrong direction. In Bobby's Revenge, you are a boy who didn't get any presents from Santa, so you attack him with a paint-ball and a tazer gun, gaining points each time you hit him. Then there is The Great Toy Robbery, where you play the role of another disgruntled boy who never received anything for Christmas, but in this case the object of the game, or, one could say, Naughty McNaughterson's revenge on Santa, is to steal as many toys as possible without getting your head smashed in by Santa's security elves or getting your whole self squashed by Santa himself when you've collected thirty toys from his workshop: yesterday I achieved a new personal best in this game, 420, which put me in 7th place on the online scoreboard for that game, something I'm very very happy about, although obviously I hope to improve my score even more. Besides everything else, I've continued my usual activities, including keeping in touch with friends.
But one thing I haven't done for a few days is read my LJ friends page, so I really must do that now. This is Fleurette the frog hopping outa here for today! (Big friendly smile).
Bye to you all, then, till next time, and watch this space for my next entry, whenever that gets posted!
- Mood:Happily hopping frog!
- Music:amanda hall - the first noel and hark! the herald angels sing
Afternoon all, just sitting here contemplating another drink.
Got woken up to a very nice twitter direct message this morning, so am not complaining there.
Kate, was bloody awesome! she did most of the tracks from sweet bells, including my favourites.
Also a few well known ones and something of the spooky kind happened.
The day i went i thought "somehow, i've got to listen to little jack frost!" i don't know what told me to do it, or anything like that, but had a weird turning feeling in my stomach and low and behold, the first song of the second half was, little jack frost.
I gritted my teeth through the first part, but by the end i was smiling!
Then came my young man. i'd been avoiding this song for a while, because of several reasons, but knew there was no way out this time!
I listened to the words, the brass instruments playing so damn well and somehow i reached the end.
She was very awesome, very happy, speaking about her baby and partner, life and music are good for her at the moment.
now, i can truly feel christmasy now that tradition has been fulfilled.
Got woken up to a very nice twitter direct message this morning, so am not complaining there.
Kate, was bloody awesome! she did most of the tracks from sweet bells, including my favourites.
Also a few well known ones and something of the spooky kind happened.
The day i went i thought "somehow, i've got to listen to little jack frost!" i don't know what told me to do it, or anything like that, but had a weird turning feeling in my stomach and low and behold, the first song of the second half was, little jack frost.
I gritted my teeth through the first part, but by the end i was smiling!
Then came my young man. i'd been avoiding this song for a while, because of several reasons, but knew there was no way out this time!
I listened to the words, the brass instruments playing so damn well and somehow i reached the end.
She was very awesome, very happy, speaking about her baby and partner, life and music are good for her at the moment.
now, i can truly feel christmasy now that tradition has been fulfilled.
- Mood:
okay
Sorry, that was a misquotation of a part of an old song by the Eagles: "There's a train leaves here this morning".
I'll soon stand ready to go to see my parents, and all of a sudden, I feel very hesitant whether to go or not. Okay, my family up north is looking forward to it, and it would be nice to see them, I admit. What makes me hesitate is that I don't like to leave a friend in her need!
Okay, some people might say that a person mostly have more than one friend, and that I mustn't think myself irreplaceable. That might very well be true, but I still find it very hard to leave!
What annoys me is that I didn't manage to install Tweets 60 on my phone as I had planned. KK was in a black mood, so I didn't want to bother him with it. I also found out that you can't post to facebook from your phone if you live in this country. I mean, there were lots of countries, like Pakistan, india and indonesia, where you very well could do it, but not Sweden, if you please. How annoying is that!
Okay, this will have to be the end of my rantings and ramblings for today. I won't be able to post until monday, when I come back!
I'll soon stand ready to go to see my parents, and all of a sudden, I feel very hesitant whether to go or not. Okay, my family up north is looking forward to it, and it would be nice to see them, I admit. What makes me hesitate is that I don't like to leave a friend in her need!
Okay, some people might say that a person mostly have more than one friend, and that I mustn't think myself irreplaceable. That might very well be true, but I still find it very hard to leave!
What annoys me is that I didn't manage to install Tweets 60 on my phone as I had planned. KK was in a black mood, so I didn't want to bother him with it. I also found out that you can't post to facebook from your phone if you live in this country. I mean, there were lots of countries, like Pakistan, india and indonesia, where you very well could do it, but not Sweden, if you please. How annoying is that!
Okay, this will have to be the end of my rantings and ramblings for today. I won't be able to post until monday, when I come back!
- Mood:
annoyed
Hi peeps. Well, today did not have a good start at all! I woke up feeling Migrainey, and with a madly itching ear. I can't wait to go back and get this stupid thing looked at!
I also heard that Charles was on the phone It was Mum. Now, she only called a couple days ago, so I knew something had gone pear-shaped. Well, the lawyers had tried E-mailing me at my American address, and had had a permanent delivery failure notice, it said that their address had been blocked because of abuse! I ask you! I sure hadn't blocked them, nor anyone else for that matter. So, back to my old home E-mail addy for the lawyers, though not for anyone else, my American one works with everyone except them! This means I'll have to remember to check every day now. Peh!
Well, it was only a little thing, but it just made me feel shaky, homesick, far far away from everyone. I clung on to charles, and had to call the Cat, who was sleeping, and with the help of two of them, I got myself back on an even keel.
The house was freezing, as the weather had been mild, and we'd gone to bed with no heating on! It's frozen today, and the house felt like the arctic circle! My ear hurt. My head felt full of cotton candy, and I felt like hell, and had a huge cry.
Well, time spent with a spyde and a cat improved things, as did coffee and breakfast. I sorted things with the lawyers, and then played some super egg hunt, and achieved 186, a new personal best!
So, I'm feeling heaps more peaceful now. I don't know if I'll go out, feeling really dizzy and Migrainey, so maybe stay in the warm. Have I written that Paul took Charles shopping yesterday? Don't think I did. He spent a mint of money, but we're now stocked up for a couple of weeks at least, so yay to that too!
Well, that does me, I guess. I'm off to find something to do. Huge huggies to all my friends! See y'all!
I also heard that Charles was on the phone It was Mum. Now, she only called a couple days ago, so I knew something had gone pear-shaped. Well, the lawyers had tried E-mailing me at my American address, and had had a permanent delivery failure notice, it said that their address had been blocked because of abuse! I ask you! I sure hadn't blocked them, nor anyone else for that matter. So, back to my old home E-mail addy for the lawyers, though not for anyone else, my American one works with everyone except them! This means I'll have to remember to check every day now. Peh!
Well, it was only a little thing, but it just made me feel shaky, homesick, far far away from everyone. I clung on to charles, and had to call the Cat, who was sleeping, and with the help of two of them, I got myself back on an even keel.
The house was freezing, as the weather had been mild, and we'd gone to bed with no heating on! It's frozen today, and the house felt like the arctic circle! My ear hurt. My head felt full of cotton candy, and I felt like hell, and had a huge cry.
Well, time spent with a spyde and a cat improved things, as did coffee and breakfast. I sorted things with the lawyers, and then played some super egg hunt, and achieved 186, a new personal best!
So, I'm feeling heaps more peaceful now. I don't know if I'll go out, feeling really dizzy and Migrainey, so maybe stay in the warm. Have I written that Paul took Charles shopping yesterday? Don't think I did. He spent a mint of money, but we're now stocked up for a couple of weeks at least, so yay to that too!
Well, that does me, I guess. I'm off to find something to do. Huge huggies to all my friends! See y'all!
- Mood:Cheer Bear.
- Music:Miranda Lambert - Famous In A Small Town
Hello all,
I had a really successful day.
Woke up fairly early, had a shower and then had a small breakfast. Then off to college. We met at 10 for a little christmas celebration. I was singing "Oh come all ye faithful" on the microphone, and at the second verse I told them to sing with me. It was great. I got loads and loads of compliments after how well I sung. Almost made me go red! Went to the cafe after to have a cup of tea and was joined by another blind person with his helper, and she said she feels like rubbish sitting opposite me seeing how much I have achieved. I told her to stop saying that, I got all red. Lol. It was nice though, I'm not used to being complimented so much. I liked it somehow. Then I went to the library and went on the computer with the crappy supernova speech, and then to the refectory for lunch. They did spaghetti Carbonara, my favourite, but it wasn't really good. It was really dry for some reason. Filled me up though. Then had another tea in the cafe before going up to my hair appointment. That was a full success. They really pamper you, they are really friendly and they do it professionally and not like the cheep hairdressing salons. It still cost me only 10 pounds because it is a student run salon.
Now everyone says how lovely my hair looks, ,so yay!
Then had two more cups of tea here which our mate made me who is staying with us till tomorrow, and then we'll go and listen to someone's testimony later.
You may not believe in this but there is a bloke called Ian McCormack. He was diving about 20 years ago, got bitten by five box-jeyyfish (which is highly poisonous) and went to the hospital. He died and god took him to hell and then to heaven where he met the LORD face to face. The LORD then braught him back from the deadh. He is still crying because of god's love after more than 20 years. He's from New Zealand. I have seen him once before, he's amazing. He was praying for us and we felt god's power went through me. It was amazing.
Sorry, if I knew how to do LJ cuts I would have done that right now.
Tomorrow it's college again. I love it. At the moment I just love my life. I am so happy, independent, and confident. I'm really content.
I had a really successful day.
Woke up fairly early, had a shower and then had a small breakfast. Then off to college. We met at 10 for a little christmas celebration. I was singing "Oh come all ye faithful" on the microphone, and at the second verse I told them to sing with me. It was great. I got loads and loads of compliments after how well I sung. Almost made me go red! Went to the cafe after to have a cup of tea and was joined by another blind person with his helper, and she said she feels like rubbish sitting opposite me seeing how much I have achieved. I told her to stop saying that, I got all red. Lol. It was nice though, I'm not used to being complimented so much. I liked it somehow. Then I went to the library and went on the computer with the crappy supernova speech, and then to the refectory for lunch. They did spaghetti Carbonara, my favourite, but it wasn't really good. It was really dry for some reason. Filled me up though. Then had another tea in the cafe before going up to my hair appointment. That was a full success. They really pamper you, they are really friendly and they do it professionally and not like the cheep hairdressing salons. It still cost me only 10 pounds because it is a student run salon.
Now everyone says how lovely my hair looks, ,so yay!
Then had two more cups of tea here which our mate made me who is staying with us till tomorrow, and then we'll go and listen to someone's testimony later.
You may not believe in this but there is a bloke called Ian McCormack. He was diving about 20 years ago, got bitten by five box-jeyyfish (which is highly poisonous) and went to the hospital. He died and god took him to hell and then to heaven where he met the LORD face to face. The LORD then braught him back from the deadh. He is still crying because of god's love after more than 20 years. He's from New Zealand. I have seen him once before, he's amazing. He was praying for us and we felt god's power went through me. It was amazing.
Sorry, if I knew how to do LJ cuts I would have done that right now.
Tomorrow it's college again. I love it. At the moment I just love my life. I am so happy, independent, and confident. I'm really content.
- Location:at Gav's desk on his laptop
- Mood:very very happy and content
Hi peeps. Well today is weird, I feel all out of sync, homesick, just rather down. Charles has an awful cough and sore throat, my ear is still bad, just Peh in the extreme! On the good side, I'm warm since Levi the handy man fixed the window, and I have the dear cat on Skype, so life ain't all bad!
Well, not much else to say, so here's a survey I got fromchiming_magic my answers are typically up front, so read at own risk.
Random questions to get to know me better!
Sometimes deep, sometimes just random. Either way, It'd be nice if you'd answer honestly.
1. How old are you? 43.
2. How old do you think you are mentally? That's hard. Parts of me are still childlike, for example my love of toys and dolls, but parts of me are battle scarred and deeply grown up. That's the best answer I can give.
3. Diet coke or coke zero? Neither! Yukk in a bucket! Regular coke all the way.
4. Summer or winter? Winter, as long as I can be cosy and warm!
5. Do you have a life motto? I have two. Do unto others as you would have them do unto you. There is more happiness in giving than in receiving.
6. Happiest year in your life? Gosh, I really don't know! I've known great happiness this year, but also had great troubles. As for the past, it's always been the same, very mixed for me.
7. Happiest day this year? February 16th. When Charles first put his arms around me and held me in front of God and everyone, right there in the airport, I knew he was right for me and I for him. Just absolute certainty which has never wavered for a second.
8. Singing or dancing? Singing all the way!!
9. spontaneous or well-planned? Usually well planned. I can be spontanious, but more often every I is dotted and every T crossed!
10. School or work? Neither. I hated school, and hated the one job I ever got. I'm much happier now.
11. Rice or pasta? Rice. I do love pasta, but given the choice like rice dishes better. I also cook a lot more with rice.
12. Are you happy where you live? I live in two countries. In wales I'm deeply happy. Here in the U S, much less so, but not unhappy enough not to come here when I have to.
13. What do you wish the most right now? that Charles and I could settle down in Wales forever.
14. Your dream holiday? I don't have one. I like staying home, and do too much traveling as it is.
15. Your goal in life? To be there for those I love and for my precious friends, to Marry Charles and live happily ever after!
16. Bodyshop or lush? Neither! I like body shop products, but can't get them often, as the nearest one to me is miles away in a town I can't visit. Never had anything from lush, but hate the stink of it! You can always tell you're near one, the smell's fit to knock you down!
17. Ever wanted to host a bodyshop party in your home? Nope. The only times I tried hosting parties, they were dismal flops.
18. When you look in the mirror (or, if you can't see, if you think about yourself), do you like what you see and what you are? Yes, I do. I'm not perfect by a long way, but I've worked hard to accept myself, warts and all.
19. Do your clothes have to be fashionable or comfortable? I can't see why one precludes the other. My clothes are both. I always dress in things I find comfortable to wear, but I also wear clothes that look modern, and won't date with time. It doesn't mean because you like to look up to date that you're tarty.
20. What do you think are your strengths? My loving heart, sense of humor, loyalty to my friends and loved ones, my ability to take hard knocks and go on standing.
21. Do you tend to think more about your weaknesses than your strengths? No, I have plenty of weaknesses, but to dwell on them would be self-distructive. There are enough people in this world trying to put you down, without you doing it to yourself!
22. How do you usually react when someone compliments you? I smile widely and thank them, and usually feel very pleased.
23. Are you good at giving compliments? yes, I try to do it whenever I can, knowing that it makes me feel good, I want to do the same for other people.
24. Can you sense atmospheres around people, like uneasiness or easy to talk to etc.? that really depends on who it is. If there is something wrong in the world of anyone I love, I usually know without being told. It doesn't work so well for people I don't know.
25. Where would you love to go on holiday? I really don't have anywhere, that's the truth. I want to stay home.
26. Would you say you are an honest person? Yes. I have made forays into the path of un honesty, and it was awful. Now I'm always honest about myself and my life, and with others when I can do it without hurting them.
27. Ever cheated on your BF/GF? Yes, I cheated on my former husband. It was the worst, most awful thing I ever did, and also turned out to be a monumental mistake from every point of view. I always said I'd never ever do it, but you don't know what desperation and loneliness will drive you to. One lesson I learned from that whole miserable episode is to never say never.
28. Can you keep a secret? Yes.
29. Milk or water? Again, I don't like either much as a plain drink, but if I had to choose which, I'd say water.
30. Tea or coffee? I love both, but asked to choose, coffee's the one I couldn't do without!
31. Do you sometimes wish you were still a child? Not on your nellie! I wouldn't go back over that again for all the rice in china!
32. Describe yourself in 3 words! Passionate, impulsive, caring.
33. How much time do you spend caring for your hair and skin? For my skin, not. I generally leave it to get on with things, unless it feels really dry, in which case it gets a quick rub of whatever moisturiser I've got. For my hair, not a huge amount, but more, as I like it to be clean, and tied back off my face during the day.
34. Do you think you changed this year? Oh yeah! At the beginning of this year I was broken, literally, deeply unhappy, with stinking bad nerves. Now I'm strong again, happier than I've ever been, looking forward to the future instead of thinking, do I really have to do this?
35. If someone hadn't seen you for a while and they'd see you again now, what do you think they'd say about you? Wow, that's hard. You finally grew up, maybe?
36. Like getting drunk? Nope. I hardly ever touch a drop these days. I try never to have too much, because it's seductive. I go on thinking fill it up, and just another shot, and just one more, until I'm ratted, and sick, and feel like hell the next day. Safer to keep off it.
37. Do you do things that your parents did and you swore never to do? I used to. When I was little I hated my parents smoking, and lo and behold, at twenty-two I started, and couldn't kick it until this year.
38. favourite ssmell? Orange blossom.
39. which famous person did you fancy when you were a teen? Jeff Lynne, the lead singer of the Electric Light Orchestra.
40. Has anyone ever read your private diary and embarrassed you? Once I wrote a book, the story of my life. I wrote it on a private directory, passworded, on J's computer. No one read it. I just had things in my head I wanted to eject from my body and mind. When I finished it I deleted it. It said some true, but very harsh things about my parents that I wouldn't have had them or anyone read for a million bucks. The whole tone of it was bitter, twisted, spiteful. What I didn't know was, J found it, and kept a copy, and at one very low period between us, he sent it to my Mother, who was recovering from a mental breakdown. She didn't speak to me for a year.
41. What would be your perfect Christmas? All the people I love most under one roof, loads of presents, turkey, love and laughter.
42. Who in your family are you closest to? My Mother. She annoys me to screaming blue rage at times, but I wouldn't be without her for anything.
43. Anyone found you on facebook after more than 10 years? Nope, and it would be very unlikely, as both my first and sur name have changed since I was young.
44. Swimming or running? Swimming, I just love it, but haven't been in ages. a dream of mine is to have a house with an indoor pool, all to myself!
45. Most relaxing sound? I love nature sounds, so a summer garden, or a forest, maybe?
46. Can you play an instrument? Yes, a bit of keyboard, but I suck royally!
47. If you could invent a job, what would it be? I'd love to string pearls for a living. I love the cool, slick feel of them. I'd just love to spend my days making long strings of them, boxing them in velvet boxes, and sending them off to customers, or stores.
48. Best gift anyone ever gave you? That would be William Charles, little Will, the Lee Middleton Newborn nursery baby Charles bought me just before I came here for the first time. He bought it so I wouldn't have to risk losing one of mine in flight. I was there when Will arrived, on skype, heard everything, and holding him for the first time was even better. He has an amazing amount of things now, and is very dear to both of us. I know, he's only a doll, but he's our American baby, always will be.
49. Sweet or savery food? Both! Often!
50. Do you like gossiping? This is my probably worst fault. Listening to what's happening on the grapevine, wanting to be in the know. I'm not one of those self-righteous people who say, I never listen to gossip, because everyone does at some time or another. One thing I will say about myself though, I don't repeat nasty things, I hear all and say nowt. And if anyone tells me something in confidence, it will go with me to the grave, you can take it to the bank!
And there you are. Hope I see some others do this. Oh God! A really, really wouchy song just came on. I. do. not. need. this! I'm out of here!
Well, not much else to say, so here's a survey I got from
chiming_magic my answers are typically up front, so read at own risk.Random questions to get to know me better!
Sometimes deep, sometimes just random. Either way, It'd be nice if you'd answer honestly.
1. How old are you? 43.
2. How old do you think you are mentally? That's hard. Parts of me are still childlike, for example my love of toys and dolls, but parts of me are battle scarred and deeply grown up. That's the best answer I can give.
3. Diet coke or coke zero? Neither! Yukk in a bucket! Regular coke all the way.
4. Summer or winter? Winter, as long as I can be cosy and warm!
5. Do you have a life motto? I have two. Do unto others as you would have them do unto you. There is more happiness in giving than in receiving.
6. Happiest year in your life? Gosh, I really don't know! I've known great happiness this year, but also had great troubles. As for the past, it's always been the same, very mixed for me.
7. Happiest day this year? February 16th. When Charles first put his arms around me and held me in front of God and everyone, right there in the airport, I knew he was right for me and I for him. Just absolute certainty which has never wavered for a second.
8. Singing or dancing? Singing all the way!!
9. spontaneous or well-planned? Usually well planned. I can be spontanious, but more often every I is dotted and every T crossed!
10. School or work? Neither. I hated school, and hated the one job I ever got. I'm much happier now.
11. Rice or pasta? Rice. I do love pasta, but given the choice like rice dishes better. I also cook a lot more with rice.
12. Are you happy where you live? I live in two countries. In wales I'm deeply happy. Here in the U S, much less so, but not unhappy enough not to come here when I have to.
13. What do you wish the most right now? that Charles and I could settle down in Wales forever.
14. Your dream holiday? I don't have one. I like staying home, and do too much traveling as it is.
15. Your goal in life? To be there for those I love and for my precious friends, to Marry Charles and live happily ever after!
16. Bodyshop or lush? Neither! I like body shop products, but can't get them often, as the nearest one to me is miles away in a town I can't visit. Never had anything from lush, but hate the stink of it! You can always tell you're near one, the smell's fit to knock you down!
17. Ever wanted to host a bodyshop party in your home? Nope. The only times I tried hosting parties, they were dismal flops.
18. When you look in the mirror (or, if you can't see, if you think about yourself), do you like what you see and what you are? Yes, I do. I'm not perfect by a long way, but I've worked hard to accept myself, warts and all.
19. Do your clothes have to be fashionable or comfortable? I can't see why one precludes the other. My clothes are both. I always dress in things I find comfortable to wear, but I also wear clothes that look modern, and won't date with time. It doesn't mean because you like to look up to date that you're tarty.
20. What do you think are your strengths? My loving heart, sense of humor, loyalty to my friends and loved ones, my ability to take hard knocks and go on standing.
21. Do you tend to think more about your weaknesses than your strengths? No, I have plenty of weaknesses, but to dwell on them would be self-distructive. There are enough people in this world trying to put you down, without you doing it to yourself!
22. How do you usually react when someone compliments you? I smile widely and thank them, and usually feel very pleased.
23. Are you good at giving compliments? yes, I try to do it whenever I can, knowing that it makes me feel good, I want to do the same for other people.
24. Can you sense atmospheres around people, like uneasiness or easy to talk to etc.? that really depends on who it is. If there is something wrong in the world of anyone I love, I usually know without being told. It doesn't work so well for people I don't know.
25. Where would you love to go on holiday? I really don't have anywhere, that's the truth. I want to stay home.
26. Would you say you are an honest person? Yes. I have made forays into the path of un honesty, and it was awful. Now I'm always honest about myself and my life, and with others when I can do it without hurting them.
27. Ever cheated on your BF/GF? Yes, I cheated on my former husband. It was the worst, most awful thing I ever did, and also turned out to be a monumental mistake from every point of view. I always said I'd never ever do it, but you don't know what desperation and loneliness will drive you to. One lesson I learned from that whole miserable episode is to never say never.
28. Can you keep a secret? Yes.
29. Milk or water? Again, I don't like either much as a plain drink, but if I had to choose which, I'd say water.
30. Tea or coffee? I love both, but asked to choose, coffee's the one I couldn't do without!
31. Do you sometimes wish you were still a child? Not on your nellie! I wouldn't go back over that again for all the rice in china!
32. Describe yourself in 3 words! Passionate, impulsive, caring.
33. How much time do you spend caring for your hair and skin? For my skin, not. I generally leave it to get on with things, unless it feels really dry, in which case it gets a quick rub of whatever moisturiser I've got. For my hair, not a huge amount, but more, as I like it to be clean, and tied back off my face during the day.
34. Do you think you changed this year? Oh yeah! At the beginning of this year I was broken, literally, deeply unhappy, with stinking bad nerves. Now I'm strong again, happier than I've ever been, looking forward to the future instead of thinking, do I really have to do this?
35. If someone hadn't seen you for a while and they'd see you again now, what do you think they'd say about you? Wow, that's hard. You finally grew up, maybe?
36. Like getting drunk? Nope. I hardly ever touch a drop these days. I try never to have too much, because it's seductive. I go on thinking fill it up, and just another shot, and just one more, until I'm ratted, and sick, and feel like hell the next day. Safer to keep off it.
37. Do you do things that your parents did and you swore never to do? I used to. When I was little I hated my parents smoking, and lo and behold, at twenty-two I started, and couldn't kick it until this year.
38. favourite ssmell? Orange blossom.
39. which famous person did you fancy when you were a teen? Jeff Lynne, the lead singer of the Electric Light Orchestra.
40. Has anyone ever read your private diary and embarrassed you? Once I wrote a book, the story of my life. I wrote it on a private directory, passworded, on J's computer. No one read it. I just had things in my head I wanted to eject from my body and mind. When I finished it I deleted it. It said some true, but very harsh things about my parents that I wouldn't have had them or anyone read for a million bucks. The whole tone of it was bitter, twisted, spiteful. What I didn't know was, J found it, and kept a copy, and at one very low period between us, he sent it to my Mother, who was recovering from a mental breakdown. She didn't speak to me for a year.
41. What would be your perfect Christmas? All the people I love most under one roof, loads of presents, turkey, love and laughter.
42. Who in your family are you closest to? My Mother. She annoys me to screaming blue rage at times, but I wouldn't be without her for anything.
43. Anyone found you on facebook after more than 10 years? Nope, and it would be very unlikely, as both my first and sur name have changed since I was young.
44. Swimming or running? Swimming, I just love it, but haven't been in ages. a dream of mine is to have a house with an indoor pool, all to myself!
45. Most relaxing sound? I love nature sounds, so a summer garden, or a forest, maybe?
46. Can you play an instrument? Yes, a bit of keyboard, but I suck royally!
47. If you could invent a job, what would it be? I'd love to string pearls for a living. I love the cool, slick feel of them. I'd just love to spend my days making long strings of them, boxing them in velvet boxes, and sending them off to customers, or stores.
48. Best gift anyone ever gave you? That would be William Charles, little Will, the Lee Middleton Newborn nursery baby Charles bought me just before I came here for the first time. He bought it so I wouldn't have to risk losing one of mine in flight. I was there when Will arrived, on skype, heard everything, and holding him for the first time was even better. He has an amazing amount of things now, and is very dear to both of us. I know, he's only a doll, but he's our American baby, always will be.
49. Sweet or savery food? Both! Often!
50. Do you like gossiping? This is my probably worst fault. Listening to what's happening on the grapevine, wanting to be in the know. I'm not one of those self-righteous people who say, I never listen to gossip, because everyone does at some time or another. One thing I will say about myself though, I don't repeat nasty things, I hear all and say nowt. And if anyone tells me something in confidence, it will go with me to the grave, you can take it to the bank!
And there you are. Hope I see some others do this. Oh God! A really, really wouchy song just came on. I. do. not. need. this! I'm out of here!
- Mood:Bleh Bear!
- Music:Rascal Flatts - Here Comes Goodbye
Well, first things first: I've finally got speech in my cell phone! No matter if we can't get any other Christmas presents, I've pretty much learned to live with that, but to finally be able to stay in touch, even when I have to be away from the computer, is really something. Thanks, mum!
Since the speech in my old phone packed up and left, I haven't been able to add all my former contacts to this phone. So if you know that we've exchanged phone numbers, and would like to exchange texts now and again, send me an email, a DM on twitter or something.
yesterday I also finally got my braillino updated, but I don't know if it was worth the increased space it needed or not. It has a calendar now, and when the alarm goes off, it's almost impossible to turn it off. So if you're in the middle of writing something, and the alarm goes off, you can look to the sky for your notes, if you weren't wise enough to save them, which I was not. So I'll use the calendar in my phone if I need one. It also has a calculator, that I don't quite know how to use. Besides, we have a talking one, so you might say the upgrade was a waste of space. Ah well, I'm not going to worry about it.
Today I finally got the blood tests done. I'm so used to them now, that I don't mind in the slightest. I got a real nice lady from the guides. The young woman I had yesterday was pretty nice too, but this one was ... well, motherly is the best description I can give. One of those rare people you can come to after a really hard day, and have a good cry, without them telling you to cheer up, and remember that there always is someone who has a heavier lode than you. Okay, it might be true, but sometimes you need some hugs and sympathy. I think almost everybody, even if they don't willingly admit it, need someone to whom they can come and be small, to be comforted and cared for. I certainly do, and luckily I have such a person close at hand. I only hope that I can be the same to her.
We got a new one from Home Help today. Her name was Paula. She was nice enough, but not at all like the one who went shopping with me on friday. And you had to go beside her and show her: "First you do this, and then you can go and do that, and after that, go do something else". But I guess it's because she's new. She will grow accustomed to the work with a little patience and time.
Nella was so funny today. She was lying in my lap, and I was singing to her, that song from the old astrid Lindgren play, about a cat who bit someone's nose off. The first verse is just about what the cat ate, herring and taters or whatever it was. But when I came to that part about the nose, Nella gave a very annoyed meow and jumped off my lap. I wonder if it was the song itself or my voice she didn't like.
This day really approved towards the end, even though I didn't think so. I'm on skype with Lulu. She's doing a survey while I'm writing this entry. Poor Charles still has this really bad cough. I certainly hope it will go away soon.
On thursday I'm going to mum's for the weekend. Before that, I really have to get tweet60 installed, so I can tweet from there.
On sunday we're going to meet with my second cousin Johnny and his family. We couldn't do that last time, because both he and Lena had a horrible cold, and mum suspected swine flu, and wouldn't let me go within shouting distance of them. They're all fine again, and I'm looking forward to our gathering. None of them make a big fuss of the fact that I can't see, which I like a lot. Same with Maria's family, even though Maria can be a bit bitchy sometimes. She means well, no doubt, but often it comes out very, very wrong.
Okay, This became a longer entry than I planned. This is old nanna cat signing off!
Since the speech in my old phone packed up and left, I haven't been able to add all my former contacts to this phone. So if you know that we've exchanged phone numbers, and would like to exchange texts now and again, send me an email, a DM on twitter or something.
yesterday I also finally got my braillino updated, but I don't know if it was worth the increased space it needed or not. It has a calendar now, and when the alarm goes off, it's almost impossible to turn it off. So if you're in the middle of writing something, and the alarm goes off, you can look to the sky for your notes, if you weren't wise enough to save them, which I was not. So I'll use the calendar in my phone if I need one. It also has a calculator, that I don't quite know how to use. Besides, we have a talking one, so you might say the upgrade was a waste of space. Ah well, I'm not going to worry about it.
Today I finally got the blood tests done. I'm so used to them now, that I don't mind in the slightest. I got a real nice lady from the guides. The young woman I had yesterday was pretty nice too, but this one was ... well, motherly is the best description I can give. One of those rare people you can come to after a really hard day, and have a good cry, without them telling you to cheer up, and remember that there always is someone who has a heavier lode than you. Okay, it might be true, but sometimes you need some hugs and sympathy. I think almost everybody, even if they don't willingly admit it, need someone to whom they can come and be small, to be comforted and cared for. I certainly do, and luckily I have such a person close at hand. I only hope that I can be the same to her.
We got a new one from Home Help today. Her name was Paula. She was nice enough, but not at all like the one who went shopping with me on friday. And you had to go beside her and show her: "First you do this, and then you can go and do that, and after that, go do something else". But I guess it's because she's new. She will grow accustomed to the work with a little patience and time.
Nella was so funny today. She was lying in my lap, and I was singing to her, that song from the old astrid Lindgren play, about a cat who bit someone's nose off. The first verse is just about what the cat ate, herring and taters or whatever it was. But when I came to that part about the nose, Nella gave a very annoyed meow and jumped off my lap. I wonder if it was the song itself or my voice she didn't like.
This day really approved towards the end, even though I didn't think so. I'm on skype with Lulu. She's doing a survey while I'm writing this entry. Poor Charles still has this really bad cough. I certainly hope it will go away soon.
On thursday I'm going to mum's for the weekend. Before that, I really have to get tweet60 installed, so I can tweet from there.
On sunday we're going to meet with my second cousin Johnny and his family. We couldn't do that last time, because both he and Lena had a horrible cold, and mum suspected swine flu, and wouldn't let me go within shouting distance of them. They're all fine again, and I'm looking forward to our gathering. None of them make a big fuss of the fact that I can't see, which I like a lot. Same with Maria's family, even though Maria can be a bit bitchy sometimes. She means well, no doubt, but often it comes out very, very wrong.
Okay, This became a longer entry than I planned. This is old nanna cat signing off!
- Music:Computer fan and key clicks
Okay got this survey from preciousines and thought i'd answer it myself.
Random questions to get to know me better!
Sometimes deep, sometimes just random. Either way, It@d be nice if you?d answer honestly.
1. How old are you? 25
2. How old do you think you are mentally? hnmmmm, hard one, probably 24ish!
3. Diet coke or coke zero? Diet coke
4. Summer or winter? Winter
5. Do you have a life motto? "care for others"
6. Happiest year in your life? 2005, okay it had some sad parts, but it ended happily!
7. Happiest day this year? a few to count of, meeting lynn again, meeting ines, walking freely with my cane without a care in the world.
8. Singing or dancing? Singing all the way!!
9. spontaneous or well-planned? Depends on the situation given.
10. School or work? aaaah voluntary work all the way i hated school! completely hated it was there for the fun, but i'm not thick and did get some qualifications.
11. Rice or pasta? Pasta but like rice too
12. Are you happy where you live? I live in 2 places and am happy with them both i can slip into the 2 separate ones with ease.
13. What do you wish the most right now? i wish for my own property and a good conversation with a certain someone, a good honest conversation, just 1, it's all i ever need. the chance to put my side across without any over reaction.
14. Your dream holiday? somewhere to be free with friends! where everyone can be care free, also i'd bring some members of family along too for the ride.
15. Your goal in life? support things i believe in, be a good person generally and be happy.
16. Bodyshop or lush? lush all the way! not bothered about make up. you might see from below.
17. Ever wanted to host a bodyshop party in your home? yes at some point i think i would.
18. When you look in the mirror (or, if you can?t see, if you think about yourself), do you like what you see and what you are? Sometimes, i have my good and bad days, like everyone i guess, we're all human.
19. Do your clothes have to be fashionable or comfortable? comfortable all the way, i hate this whole fashion thing! i'll get so thin i look like my fave celeb, wear trowel loads of make up and generally look like a tart? no ta not my style.
20. What do you think are your strengths? The ability to communicate, to make people laugh, love a lot and be a good friend.
21. Do you tend to think more about your weaknesses than your strengths? yep and it's something i have to work on in 2010.
22. How do you usually react when someone compliments you? I go bright red, laugh stupidly and then say "thanks very much!"
23. Are you good at giving compliments? not very i don't give them often enough.
24. Can you sense atmospheres around people, like uneasiness or easy to talk to etc.? definitely i can pick up on a person rather quickly and if i don't like them, i close up and don't hardly talk!
25. Where would you love to go on holiday? just away from here, to somewhere nice and sunny.
26. Would you say you are an honest person? yep! i've done things i regret in the past, so i learn through experience. i try to be as honest as i can be without being hurtful.
27. Ever cheated on your BF/GF? i was too much in love in my last relationship to even think about cheating. it's disgusting and hurtful, it's happened to me before, so why would i put someone through that awful pain?
28. Can you keep a secret? Yes.
29. Milk or water? Milk all the way!!!!!
30. Tea or coffee? Tea definitely.
31. Do you sometimes wish you were still a child? absolutely what a carefree time!
32. Describe yourself in 3 words! caring, loveable and childlike (sometimes)
33. How much time do you spend caring for your hair and skin? not enough, i've got a heart in there so i care more about people's feelings than i do about my own body but now i'm 25, i should look after it more, you only get 1 body!
34. Do you think you changed this year? for sure, some ways better, some worse!
35. If someone hadn?t seen you for a while and they?d see you again now, what do you think they?d say about you? "You did good, kid!"
36. Like getting drunk? i hardlhy drink these days. i'll get tipsy yes but not drunk, yuck!
37. Do you do things that your parents did and you swore never to do? yep lose mhy temper, think i got it from my dear father! not!
38. favourite ssmell? peach, vanilla
39. which famous person did you fancy when you were a teen? david beckham all the way!
40. Has anyone ever read your private diary and embarrassed you? no, but i wrote something about my sister once and saved it onto disc. i left it lying around, she found it and read all the contents, hole, open up and swallow me!
41. What would be your perfect Christmas? everyone i truly loved in 1 room, i'd provide anything they wanted or asked for. no expense spaired.
42. Who in your family are you closest to? mum and nan, they've been my rock this year i couldn't have done without them.
43. Anyone found you on facebook after more than 10 years? yep some friends i knew from scool.
44. Swimming or running? Swimming
45. Most relaxing sound? The sea
46. Can you play an instrument? i can sort of play the accordian but want to go further, i can also sing.
47. If you could invent a job, what would it be? a gadget custom made to make someone's life easier for them and it would be custom made to their exact needs.
48. Best gift anyone ever gave you? love, my family led by example.
49. Sweet or savery food? Sweet all the way, without a doubt.
50. Do you like gossiping? if someone gives me information then fine, but if it's nasty i really don't want to know.
there you are, honest as it comes.
preciousines and thought i'd answer it myself.Random questions to get to know me better!
Sometimes deep, sometimes just random. Either way, It@d be nice if you?d answer honestly.
1. How old are you? 25
2. How old do you think you are mentally? hnmmmm, hard one, probably 24ish!
3. Diet coke or coke zero? Diet coke
4. Summer or winter? Winter
5. Do you have a life motto? "care for others"
6. Happiest year in your life? 2005, okay it had some sad parts, but it ended happily!
7. Happiest day this year? a few to count of, meeting lynn again, meeting ines, walking freely with my cane without a care in the world.
8. Singing or dancing? Singing all the way!!
9. spontaneous or well-planned? Depends on the situation given.
10. School or work? aaaah voluntary work all the way i hated school! completely hated it was there for the fun, but i'm not thick and did get some qualifications.
11. Rice or pasta? Pasta but like rice too
12. Are you happy where you live? I live in 2 places and am happy with them both i can slip into the 2 separate ones with ease.
13. What do you wish the most right now? i wish for my own property and a good conversation with a certain someone, a good honest conversation, just 1, it's all i ever need. the chance to put my side across without any over reaction.
14. Your dream holiday? somewhere to be free with friends! where everyone can be care free, also i'd bring some members of family along too for the ride.
15. Your goal in life? support things i believe in, be a good person generally and be happy.
16. Bodyshop or lush? lush all the way! not bothered about make up. you might see from below.
17. Ever wanted to host a bodyshop party in your home? yes at some point i think i would.
18. When you look in the mirror (or, if you can?t see, if you think about yourself), do you like what you see and what you are? Sometimes, i have my good and bad days, like everyone i guess, we're all human.
19. Do your clothes have to be fashionable or comfortable? comfortable all the way, i hate this whole fashion thing! i'll get so thin i look like my fave celeb, wear trowel loads of make up and generally look like a tart? no ta not my style.
20. What do you think are your strengths? The ability to communicate, to make people laugh, love a lot and be a good friend.
21. Do you tend to think more about your weaknesses than your strengths? yep and it's something i have to work on in 2010.
22. How do you usually react when someone compliments you? I go bright red, laugh stupidly and then say "thanks very much!"
23. Are you good at giving compliments? not very i don't give them often enough.
24. Can you sense atmospheres around people, like uneasiness or easy to talk to etc.? definitely i can pick up on a person rather quickly and if i don't like them, i close up and don't hardly talk!
25. Where would you love to go on holiday? just away from here, to somewhere nice and sunny.
26. Would you say you are an honest person? yep! i've done things i regret in the past, so i learn through experience. i try to be as honest as i can be without being hurtful.
27. Ever cheated on your BF/GF? i was too much in love in my last relationship to even think about cheating. it's disgusting and hurtful, it's happened to me before, so why would i put someone through that awful pain?
28. Can you keep a secret? Yes.
29. Milk or water? Milk all the way!!!!!
30. Tea or coffee? Tea definitely.
31. Do you sometimes wish you were still a child? absolutely what a carefree time!
32. Describe yourself in 3 words! caring, loveable and childlike (sometimes)
33. How much time do you spend caring for your hair and skin? not enough, i've got a heart in there so i care more about people's feelings than i do about my own body but now i'm 25, i should look after it more, you only get 1 body!
34. Do you think you changed this year? for sure, some ways better, some worse!
35. If someone hadn?t seen you for a while and they?d see you again now, what do you think they?d say about you? "You did good, kid!"
36. Like getting drunk? i hardlhy drink these days. i'll get tipsy yes but not drunk, yuck!
37. Do you do things that your parents did and you swore never to do? yep lose mhy temper, think i got it from my dear father! not!
38. favourite ssmell? peach, vanilla
39. which famous person did you fancy when you were a teen? david beckham all the way!
40. Has anyone ever read your private diary and embarrassed you? no, but i wrote something about my sister once and saved it onto disc. i left it lying around, she found it and read all the contents, hole, open up and swallow me!
41. What would be your perfect Christmas? everyone i truly loved in 1 room, i'd provide anything they wanted or asked for. no expense spaired.
42. Who in your family are you closest to? mum and nan, they've been my rock this year i couldn't have done without them.
43. Anyone found you on facebook after more than 10 years? yep some friends i knew from scool.
44. Swimming or running? Swimming
45. Most relaxing sound? The sea
46. Can you play an instrument? i can sort of play the accordian but want to go further, i can also sing.
47. If you could invent a job, what would it be? a gadget custom made to make someone's life easier for them and it would be custom made to their exact needs.
48. Best gift anyone ever gave you? love, my family led by example.
49. Sweet or savery food? Sweet all the way, without a doubt.
50. Do you like gossiping? if someone gives me information then fine, but if it's nasty i really don't want to know.
there you are, honest as it comes.
- Mood: okay
Well hello everyone
wow! it's been far too long since I last wrote in here. The reason for that is that the page had some funny stuff going on, and it was causing weirdnesses with the computer, so I left it be for a while.
Before I get started on this entry, I will warn you, it might sound very sad in places, and make me appear sorry for myself, but it's not a cry for sympathy. It's merely putting people in the picture of what's been happening lately.
Did I write about Susan's wedding? Without looking, I can't remember. Well, in case I didn't, she married Simon on 31 october. It was a fantastic time for the family. I thoroughly enjoyed it. The only thing that let me down was the fact I turned into a zombie half way through the evening do. That's nothing unusual though. If the music's too loud, or there's too much noise in general, it sends me to sleep. I call it information overload. Apart from that though, it was brilliant.
Next, things went, shall we say, in true Lynn fashion, somewhat wallybox. First of all, I can't remember if it was on Grandad's birthday, or the day after, I found out that my uncle Bobby, grandad's brother-inlaw, had passed away. What made this even sadder is that auntie Anna, grandad's sister, has alzeimer's (however the flippin' thing's spelt), and we don't even know if she knew who he was in the end, let alone that he'd gone. I was, as you'd guess, quite cut up about that. We went to uncle Bobby's funeral, and it was a weird time for me. First of all, there was all the sadness, then the usual nervousness about staying in unfamiliar places, although I'm getting soooooo much less nervous these days, and then, to top it all, the excitement of meeting relatives I didn't even know about. It seems weird to say that I enjoyed myself up there, but inspite of the reason we went up there, I actually did.
IT was when I came back that things really went wallybox. I'd been having fits a lot before I went up to Scotland, but when we got up there, they stopped. When I came back home again, they started again, and took the weirdest and most horrible turn I've ever experienced. every night, no matter when I went to bed, I'd wake up around four, with a fit, and from then on, I'd be so anxious, uncomfortable, unsettled, all those things, even frightened of my own cuddly toys, which were usually my best source of comfort during fits. Mum would get up at six for an early shift, and I'd pop my head round the door and say hi, just to hear a friendly voice. Then she'd go out, and I'd cry, even though I knew that nan would still be here, even when dad went out a little later. I was tense during the day too, jumping at the slightest little thing. as time went by, and nothing got any better, I got scared to sleep. Also, during those early hours, (which I called black nights), I started having awful thoughts, the kind that seriously depressed people often get, let's say no more than that, and I finally decided that something had to be done. I always said that I'd never take medication for the fits, but by the wednesday after I came back from Scotland, I was desperate, so off to the doctor I went. She was really nice, and listened to everything I had to say. She had my notes from the neurologist, from when I'd seen him before, and he'd told her what to prescribe if things got bad. She put me on a very low dose of something called Lamotrigine. I was on 25 mg for about two weeks, then just last week, the doctor upped it to 50, even though I've only had one more fit in the whole time I've been on it. The doctor reckons that's just coincidence, and I wouldn't be surprised there, because the fits do come and go like that. I've got to stay a month on 50, and see what happens, then we'll take it from there. I certainly feel much better anyway.
Despite all that, there were some nice things happening. on the Sunday before I decided to go to the doctor, we had a meal at the church, and I really enjoyed it. Once again, I showed how much my eating out has improved. I more or less tried a bit of everything, and a great time was had by all.
I think it was around that time too that Anthea phoned, and asked if I wanted to sing with her at a thing on the 11th. I can't elaborate there, because my stupid memory, which lately has been doing some very nasty things, has gone and lost what Anthea said it actually was. We're singing loads of carols anyway, and I've got loads of solos. I said I would, if my head behaved, which so far, (touch wood), it has. We had the first rehearsal last Friday. All didn't quite go to plan. We had to go along to the church, where Graham accompanies the choir, and sit through his choir rehearsal, before we started on our stuff. The trouble was, I didn't even realise there were only going to be three of us singing at this thing we're doing, so each time the choir started a new carol, I kept wondering if we were doing it, and thinking "but I don't know it. what am I going to do?" Then they started doing one of Graham's own things, which are pretty complicated, and by the end of that, I was almost asleep. I've noticed lately that I can't focus on something for a long period of time, and by the end of the choir rehearsal, I'd totally lost interest, well, for the moment anyway. I didn't know what on earth I was meant to be doing, I'd forgotten most of the words, I was freeeeeeezing cold, and I just felt like walking out and going home. I mean, I'd even forgotten that "o little town of bethlehem" had a descant. I've sung that every year since about 2002, so how could I forget it? Anyway, once we got going, the more I sang, the better I felt, and by the end of it, I thought maybe I could do it after all. Now I've got all the words written down, and know what we're doing, I'm actually rather excited about it.
However, of course, sod's law states, if something makes you feel happy, something else will come along and slap you good and hard in the face. When I came home from the rehearsal, dad had had to go and rescue mum. She'd gone to Boston, (the one in England *grin*) to do some shopping, fallen over a paving slab or something, and been hurt rather badly, so dad had gone to collect her car, and see what was to be done. It turned out mum had broken her arm, and hurt her knee quite badly, and also bruised her ribs. Ouch! On top of all that, while dad was away, nan asked me what time the heating would come on. I said it should have been on since four, and it was now nine-ish, but whenI touched the radiator, it was ice cold. The boiler was running, but it too was ice cold, even the airing cupboard was cold. I was worried in case the gas had gone out, and in the end, I rang my faithful friend Adrian, to see if he could suggest anything. He came round and helped us figure how to turn stuff off. However, when dad came back, it worked as good as new. It's never done it since, so we still don't know what the deal was there.
I've been trying to help out around the house, since obviously mum can't do much with her arm in a sling and a bad leg. One thing that sticks out is sorting nan's pills. I can think of many sighted people who wouldn't let me near such things, but this is where I excelled. Nan takes four different pills, each at different times of the day, and she has a set of seven little pill minders, with four compartments in each. My idea was to lay the pill boxes all out in a line, in order of time, and just pop one in each compartment, so she would take them at the right times. The pill minder actually has tactile bits, to indicate which compartment is which, so that was easy enough, but the coolest thing of all was that all the boxes came with braille on, to tell what the pills were, so now, if I do it again, I'll probably be able to do it by names. They all look different anyway, but I thought having the braille on was an excelent idea. Only question now is, why aren't mine brailled? I had to do that myself. not fair!
I had another blow yesterday too. I'd been having a mega skype with Kristian, Krister and Amanda, and I went downstairs for something, and found out that my auntie Chrissie, my dad's auntie in fact, had passed away. That was sad enough, because I thought the world of her, even though we'd only met about three times, but she died in July, and my uncle Jim, dad's brother, only told us on Sunday night. For a bit, I was really tearful, but my friends soon brought me back up to bounce again. Yea for friends! Where would we be without them?
Yikes this is long! I think I'd better stop now. Well that's brought you all up to date anyway. I'll try not to leave it so long till next time.
Bye for now
wow! it's been far too long since I last wrote in here. The reason for that is that the page had some funny stuff going on, and it was causing weirdnesses with the computer, so I left it be for a while.
Before I get started on this entry, I will warn you, it might sound very sad in places, and make me appear sorry for myself, but it's not a cry for sympathy. It's merely putting people in the picture of what's been happening lately.
Did I write about Susan's wedding? Without looking, I can't remember. Well, in case I didn't, she married Simon on 31 october. It was a fantastic time for the family. I thoroughly enjoyed it. The only thing that let me down was the fact I turned into a zombie half way through the evening do. That's nothing unusual though. If the music's too loud, or there's too much noise in general, it sends me to sleep. I call it information overload. Apart from that though, it was brilliant.
Next, things went, shall we say, in true Lynn fashion, somewhat wallybox. First of all, I can't remember if it was on Grandad's birthday, or the day after, I found out that my uncle Bobby, grandad's brother-inlaw, had passed away. What made this even sadder is that auntie Anna, grandad's sister, has alzeimer's (however the flippin' thing's spelt), and we don't even know if she knew who he was in the end, let alone that he'd gone. I was, as you'd guess, quite cut up about that. We went to uncle Bobby's funeral, and it was a weird time for me. First of all, there was all the sadness, then the usual nervousness about staying in unfamiliar places, although I'm getting soooooo much less nervous these days, and then, to top it all, the excitement of meeting relatives I didn't even know about. It seems weird to say that I enjoyed myself up there, but inspite of the reason we went up there, I actually did.
IT was when I came back that things really went wallybox. I'd been having fits a lot before I went up to Scotland, but when we got up there, they stopped. When I came back home again, they started again, and took the weirdest and most horrible turn I've ever experienced. every night, no matter when I went to bed, I'd wake up around four, with a fit, and from then on, I'd be so anxious, uncomfortable, unsettled, all those things, even frightened of my own cuddly toys, which were usually my best source of comfort during fits. Mum would get up at six for an early shift, and I'd pop my head round the door and say hi, just to hear a friendly voice. Then she'd go out, and I'd cry, even though I knew that nan would still be here, even when dad went out a little later. I was tense during the day too, jumping at the slightest little thing. as time went by, and nothing got any better, I got scared to sleep. Also, during those early hours, (which I called black nights), I started having awful thoughts, the kind that seriously depressed people often get, let's say no more than that, and I finally decided that something had to be done. I always said that I'd never take medication for the fits, but by the wednesday after I came back from Scotland, I was desperate, so off to the doctor I went. She was really nice, and listened to everything I had to say. She had my notes from the neurologist, from when I'd seen him before, and he'd told her what to prescribe if things got bad. She put me on a very low dose of something called Lamotrigine. I was on 25 mg for about two weeks, then just last week, the doctor upped it to 50, even though I've only had one more fit in the whole time I've been on it. The doctor reckons that's just coincidence, and I wouldn't be surprised there, because the fits do come and go like that. I've got to stay a month on 50, and see what happens, then we'll take it from there. I certainly feel much better anyway.
Despite all that, there were some nice things happening. on the Sunday before I decided to go to the doctor, we had a meal at the church, and I really enjoyed it. Once again, I showed how much my eating out has improved. I more or less tried a bit of everything, and a great time was had by all.
I think it was around that time too that Anthea phoned, and asked if I wanted to sing with her at a thing on the 11th. I can't elaborate there, because my stupid memory, which lately has been doing some very nasty things, has gone and lost what Anthea said it actually was. We're singing loads of carols anyway, and I've got loads of solos. I said I would, if my head behaved, which so far, (touch wood), it has. We had the first rehearsal last Friday. All didn't quite go to plan. We had to go along to the church, where Graham accompanies the choir, and sit through his choir rehearsal, before we started on our stuff. The trouble was, I didn't even realise there were only going to be three of us singing at this thing we're doing, so each time the choir started a new carol, I kept wondering if we were doing it, and thinking "but I don't know it. what am I going to do?" Then they started doing one of Graham's own things, which are pretty complicated, and by the end of that, I was almost asleep. I've noticed lately that I can't focus on something for a long period of time, and by the end of the choir rehearsal, I'd totally lost interest, well, for the moment anyway. I didn't know what on earth I was meant to be doing, I'd forgotten most of the words, I was freeeeeeezing cold, and I just felt like walking out and going home. I mean, I'd even forgotten that "o little town of bethlehem" had a descant. I've sung that every year since about 2002, so how could I forget it? Anyway, once we got going, the more I sang, the better I felt, and by the end of it, I thought maybe I could do it after all. Now I've got all the words written down, and know what we're doing, I'm actually rather excited about it.
However, of course, sod's law states, if something makes you feel happy, something else will come along and slap you good and hard in the face. When I came home from the rehearsal, dad had had to go and rescue mum. She'd gone to Boston, (the one in England *grin*) to do some shopping, fallen over a paving slab or something, and been hurt rather badly, so dad had gone to collect her car, and see what was to be done. It turned out mum had broken her arm, and hurt her knee quite badly, and also bruised her ribs. Ouch! On top of all that, while dad was away, nan asked me what time the heating would come on. I said it should have been on since four, and it was now nine-ish, but whenI touched the radiator, it was ice cold. The boiler was running, but it too was ice cold, even the airing cupboard was cold. I was worried in case the gas had gone out, and in the end, I rang my faithful friend Adrian, to see if he could suggest anything. He came round and helped us figure how to turn stuff off. However, when dad came back, it worked as good as new. It's never done it since, so we still don't know what the deal was there.
I've been trying to help out around the house, since obviously mum can't do much with her arm in a sling and a bad leg. One thing that sticks out is sorting nan's pills. I can think of many sighted people who wouldn't let me near such things, but this is where I excelled. Nan takes four different pills, each at different times of the day, and she has a set of seven little pill minders, with four compartments in each. My idea was to lay the pill boxes all out in a line, in order of time, and just pop one in each compartment, so she would take them at the right times. The pill minder actually has tactile bits, to indicate which compartment is which, so that was easy enough, but the coolest thing of all was that all the boxes came with braille on, to tell what the pills were, so now, if I do it again, I'll probably be able to do it by names. They all look different anyway, but I thought having the braille on was an excelent idea. Only question now is, why aren't mine brailled? I had to do that myself. not fair!
I had another blow yesterday too. I'd been having a mega skype with Kristian, Krister and Amanda, and I went downstairs for something, and found out that my auntie Chrissie, my dad's auntie in fact, had passed away. That was sad enough, because I thought the world of her, even though we'd only met about three times, but she died in July, and my uncle Jim, dad's brother, only told us on Sunday night. For a bit, I was really tearful, but my friends soon brought me back up to bounce again. Yea for friends! Where would we be without them?
Yikes this is long! I think I'd better stop now. Well that's brought you all up to date anyway. I'll try not to leave it so long till next time.
Bye for now
- Mood:all over the place
Hi all,
After seeing all those surveys people made up I decided to make a non-teen-survey without too many being-in-love questions because it’s not all about that. So, enjoy, and, if you want, answer the questions for yourselves. I’d also love your comments about my answers.
Random questions to get to know me better!
Sometimes deep, sometimes just random. Either way, It@d be nice if you’d answer honestly.
1. How old are you? 22
2. How old do you think you are mentally? 22
3. Diet coke or coke zero? Diet coke
4. Summer or winter? Summer!
5. Do you have a life motto? “live to love and laugh”.
6. Happiest year in your life? This year, definitely.
7. Happiest day this year? Far too many to count.
8. Singing or dancing? Singing all the way!!
9. spontaneous or well-planned? Depends.
10. School or work? I don’t know, haven’t experienced work yet.
11. Rice or pasta? Pasta but like rice too
12. Are you happy where you live? Absolutely!
13. What do you wish the most right now? More friends in the area
14. Your dream holiday? Somewhere on a beach with all my friends, with a barbecue and cocktails.
15. Your goal in life? To fulfil the destiny that god has for me.
16. Bodyshop or lush? Bodyshop for shampoo and skin stuff and make-up, Lush for soaps, shower and bath stuff
17. Ever wanted to host a bodyshop party in your home? If I had more female friends, I’d soooo love to!!
18. When you look in the mirror (or, if you can’t see, if you think about yourself), do you like what you see and what you are? More and more!!
19. Do your clothes have to be fashionable or comfortable? Comfortable mostly but I’d love to have a few more fashionable items.
20. What do you think are your strengths? Infectuous laugh, nice smile, great humour, open-minded, good in learning languages, good listener, very emotional but not too much so, great singing voice
21. Do you tend to think more about your weaknesses than your strengths? I think we all do but I am getting better.
22. How do you usually react when someone compliments you? I smile shyly, laugh a bit and say thank you.
23. Are you good at giving compliments? I’d say I am.
24. Can you sense atmospheres around people, like uneasiness or easy to talk to etc.? Oh yes, very strongly.
25. Where would you love to go on holiday? Kansas because of the international house of prayer, anywhere where it’s sunny and where there are beaches.
26. Would you say you are an honest person? Most of the time, but I do want to be more honest. I often lie about small things, but I’d say I’m honest in friendships.
27. Ever cheated on your BF/GF? No. I was close to, once, when I was with my ex, but didn’t. I’d think about how I’d feel if he’d do it to me.
28. Can you keep a secret? Yes.
29. Milk or water? Milk all the way!!!!!
30. Tea or coffee? Tea definitely.
31. Do you sometimes wish you were still a child? Sometimes, but then I think no, too much happened to me as a child.
32. Describe yourself in 3 words! Intelligent, childlike, outgoing
33. How much time do you spend caring for your hair and skin? Way more now than I used to, now that I like myself more.
34. Do you think you changed this year? Oh goodness yes, all for the better.
35. If someone hadn’t seen you for a while and they’d see you again now, what do you think they’d say about you? “She gained some more weight, but she also gained confidence and takes more care of her body.”
36. Like getting drunk? No yuck. Tipsy, oh yes. But not drunk. Only did it once.
37. Do you do things that your parents did and you swore never to do? Yes, snap at other people, yell, make sarcastic remarks
38. favourite ssmell? Vanilla, coconut, mango
39. which famous person did you fancy when you were a teen? Enrique Iglesias. Lol
40. Has anyone ever read your private diary and embarrassed you? Yes lol, and they saw all the Enrique love promises. Rofl
41. What would be your perfect Christmas? All my friends together in harmony having a great time.
42. Who in your family are you closest to? That’s hard to answer for me, I guess my nan, in a way.
43. Anyone found you on facebook after more than 10 years? Yup one girl from kindergarten lol
44. Swimming or running? Swimming
45. Most relaxing sound? The sea
46. Can you play an instrument? No but I can sing. I want to learn the piano though.
47. If you could invent a job, what would it be? Inventor of sweets and cakes that make you thin
48. Best gift anyone ever gave you? Friends, god gave them to me.
49. Sweet or savery food? SweetYes I can.
50. Do you like gossiping? I try not to. I hate talking behind people’s back, happened to me too often in the last years.
So there you go. Enjoy!!
After seeing all those surveys people made up I decided to make a non-teen-survey without too many being-in-love questions because it’s not all about that. So, enjoy, and, if you want, answer the questions for yourselves. I’d also love your comments about my answers.
Random questions to get to know me better!
Sometimes deep, sometimes just random. Either way, It@d be nice if you’d answer honestly.
1. How old are you? 22
2. How old do you think you are mentally? 22
3. Diet coke or coke zero? Diet coke
4. Summer or winter? Summer!
5. Do you have a life motto? “live to love and laugh”.
6. Happiest year in your life? This year, definitely.
7. Happiest day this year? Far too many to count.
8. Singing or dancing? Singing all the way!!
9. spontaneous or well-planned? Depends.
10. School or work? I don’t know, haven’t experienced work yet.
11. Rice or pasta? Pasta but like rice too
12. Are you happy where you live? Absolutely!
13. What do you wish the most right now? More friends in the area
14. Your dream holiday? Somewhere on a beach with all my friends, with a barbecue and cocktails.
15. Your goal in life? To fulfil the destiny that god has for me.
16. Bodyshop or lush? Bodyshop for shampoo and skin stuff and make-up, Lush for soaps, shower and bath stuff
17. Ever wanted to host a bodyshop party in your home? If I had more female friends, I’d soooo love to!!
18. When you look in the mirror (or, if you can’t see, if you think about yourself), do you like what you see and what you are? More and more!!
19. Do your clothes have to be fashionable or comfortable? Comfortable mostly but I’d love to have a few more fashionable items.
20. What do you think are your strengths? Infectuous laugh, nice smile, great humour, open-minded, good in learning languages, good listener, very emotional but not too much so, great singing voice
21. Do you tend to think more about your weaknesses than your strengths? I think we all do but I am getting better.
22. How do you usually react when someone compliments you? I smile shyly, laugh a bit and say thank you.
23. Are you good at giving compliments? I’d say I am.
24. Can you sense atmospheres around people, like uneasiness or easy to talk to etc.? Oh yes, very strongly.
25. Where would you love to go on holiday? Kansas because of the international house of prayer, anywhere where it’s sunny and where there are beaches.
26. Would you say you are an honest person? Most of the time, but I do want to be more honest. I often lie about small things, but I’d say I’m honest in friendships.
27. Ever cheated on your BF/GF? No. I was close to, once, when I was with my ex, but didn’t. I’d think about how I’d feel if he’d do it to me.
28. Can you keep a secret? Yes.
29. Milk or water? Milk all the way!!!!!
30. Tea or coffee? Tea definitely.
31. Do you sometimes wish you were still a child? Sometimes, but then I think no, too much happened to me as a child.
32. Describe yourself in 3 words! Intelligent, childlike, outgoing
33. How much time do you spend caring for your hair and skin? Way more now than I used to, now that I like myself more.
34. Do you think you changed this year? Oh goodness yes, all for the better.
35. If someone hadn’t seen you for a while and they’d see you again now, what do you think they’d say about you? “She gained some more weight, but she also gained confidence and takes more care of her body.”
36. Like getting drunk? No yuck. Tipsy, oh yes. But not drunk. Only did it once.
37. Do you do things that your parents did and you swore never to do? Yes, snap at other people, yell, make sarcastic remarks
38. favourite ssmell? Vanilla, coconut, mango
39. which famous person did you fancy when you were a teen? Enrique Iglesias. Lol
40. Has anyone ever read your private diary and embarrassed you? Yes lol, and they saw all the Enrique love promises. Rofl
41. What would be your perfect Christmas? All my friends together in harmony having a great time.
42. Who in your family are you closest to? That’s hard to answer for me, I guess my nan, in a way.
43. Anyone found you on facebook after more than 10 years? Yup one girl from kindergarten lol
44. Swimming or running? Swimming
45. Most relaxing sound? The sea
46. Can you play an instrument? No but I can sing. I want to learn the piano though.
47. If you could invent a job, what would it be? Inventor of sweets and cakes that make you thin
48. Best gift anyone ever gave you? Friends, god gave them to me.
49. Sweet or savery food? SweetYes I can.
50. Do you like gossiping? I try not to. I hate talking behind people’s back, happened to me too often in the last years.
So there you go. Enjoy!!
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- Mood: happy
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